How do I look for what I never saw?

How do I love you if is against the law?

I don´t know why is my past haunting me.

I only hear what I don´t want to hear.

I don´t know how should I be.

I know it. My desire is bright.

But my thoughts tell me that it´s wrong

And I don´t know if I am that strong.

In my heart exists a spike.

I am not like you,

I don´t know always what to do.

Sometimes I let the words slip of my tongue.

I can´t keep my mouth shut,

And sometimes words just cut.

And I still have a lot to learn.

Tell me, have you learned

How to make the past return?